Happy 2nd Birthday, Austin

Austin -

I still can't believe this happened.....you are gone. Today you would have turned 2. It makes me sad that I can't even imagine you at this age.....what it would be like to throw you a birthday party....to have superheroes.....cars....tractors......just you! I had so many plans and dreams for you that are now what if's and what would have beens. My heart is broken, but especially today. It is the realization that it has been 2 years since my life has flipped over, the rose colored glasses on life were taken off, I changed, forever changed. From the moment I knew of you, I loved you and always will. There will always be a hole in me ..... your spot in my heart that I know will never be filled until we meet again in Heaven. And I am learning to live with that hole. I am so grateful God sent you to me, that He entrusted such a special little boy to me.....and that He has carried me and strengthened me along the way. I know you are the one that is Home in the arms of Jesus and someday when I get to the gates of Heaven I will know why this happened. Until then, I will trust God's reason....His plan. But know there is not a moment that goes by that I don't feel you in my heart, that I don't think of you, that I don't yearn to have you. You are my son....now and always. May you feel your Momma's love flying to you on angels wings today. Happy 2nd Birthday little man! I miss you so much it hurts all over! Love you!

Momma