Journal - July 29, 2012

Baby Boy - Today was the first day we took the girls out to visit your "memory box." We have told them that we buried a box full of memories, including the pictures they drew for you, your blanket from Aunt Katie and pins from your family. Lexi keeps pointing at the flowers on your grave saying "baby." I think she understands more than we give her credit for. She gets such a sad face when she says your name. She misses her brother. Avery on the other hand was very concerned that your "memory box" was buried. She was crying and kept telling us she was a good grass and dirt digger and could get it out. She wants to keep your memories. She tells me all the time how much she misses her baby brother. The sky was clear again today but not much of a breeze. Without the windchime going it doesn't feel like you are there. I hope you know how much I love and miss you. I prayed again today over your grave (like I do everyday) that God please give you a hug and kiss from your Momma. We also published your website today. I want to share you with the world. You are such a special boy, who lived such a special life. Momma is going to work on starting a foundation in your name to help other babies and families in similar situations. Your goodness and fight will live on son - Momma will make sure of it. All my love Austin! Momma